Hello loves!!! I have been MIA. There has been SO much going on.
1st, the company I worked for closed on June 30th. So I have been out of a job.
2nd on June 30th I finally ended my 9 year relationship.
3rd, June 30th I fell down the stairs and sprained my ankle very badly, and since then I have fallen on it several more times. Lol
I want to talk about my head space.
At the end of June we separated and moved out of the apartment. Its been really hard mentally. I know its a good thing, but of course I keep thinking about it, what I could have done differently, the mistakes I made, etc. I have a strong sense of guilt that I maybe shouldn’t have. After all, he wanted to end it for years.
Over all I look at it as a fresh start.
However I have also been highly depressed and my weight has absolutely spiraled. I haven’t been looking after myself for a while. I eat and drink poison daily.
I weigh 190lbs. Which is the highest I’ve EVER weighed… My BF% is 47.
This has crippled my thinking because its all I can focus on. I can feel it when I walk and sit. I was working out consistently for 4 weeks before twisting my ankle the 2nd (and worst) time. It’s not fully healed yet but I’m planning on starting again tonight. And beginning a Low carb diet tomorrow morning. Its worked for me before.
OH! I went to Vegas. It was amazing. The Cirque Solei KA show was amazing.
